It’s In Your Blood.

I can't say a lot today because I'm shaking apart.
So you get a list.
Around 45 days left and we are still losing people.
Like today.
How do you put the people we have lost in the wrong unit in their memorial?
And not include all of them?
Why do I have a big red button that you can push so easily?
Why does being ignored bother me so fucking much?
Why am I on the verge of screaming or crying?
And all I'm doing is reading and trying to relax.
Why can't I let shit go?
Even after it's thrown me away?
What am I doing here?
What am I doing anywhere?
More later as I continue to push through "Atlas Shrugged". Later.